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13th-Oct-2007 10:48 am

Who: Jasper & OTA
What: Jasper decides to take a break from all the stress in the Cullen house.
Where: The woods surrounding the Cullen house.
When: July 7th
Status: Incomplete

As always, Edward and Rosalie were fighting. It was nothing new; those two tended to contradict each other on an almost daily basis. But today, the ensuing emotions were affecting Jasper more than normal. Perhaps it was the mixture of everyday stress and tension combined with Bella's impending turning, not to mention the wedding.
But Alice was happy, as she almost always was, so Jasper wasn't overly taxed by all the negative emotions. Even so, he'd wandered (or ran, depending on how human you were) to the woods used to conceal the Cullens' house. The only emotions to bother him here came from simple animals, so they were easily ignored, letting him mull over his own experience as a newborn.

(Sorry, guys, I don't know how to do an LJ cut.)

14th-Oct-2007 04:21 am (UTC)
Edward slowed his running when he saw Jasper ahead. He could hear his troubled thoughts, and felt bad for the environment Rosalie and he had created in the garage.

His body still stiff with anger, Edward spoke softly. "I didn't intend for that to happen. I'm sorry."
14th-Oct-2007 02:00 pm (UTC)
Jasper lppked up when he sensed Edward. He smiled ruefully at his brother's apology.
"It's not your fault," he replied. "Every time there's a wedding everyone starts to get stressed out."
15th-Oct-2007 12:32 am (UTC)
"That's true," Edward sighed, crouching to sit under a tree. "But this isn't like other weddings."

He rubbed his temples in frustration. "I don't know what to do, Jasper. I'm going in circles."
15th-Oct-2007 02:16 am (UTC)
Jasper nodded sympathetically and fell into a sitting position beside the other vampire. "You knew it wouldn't be easy when you started this," Jasper reminded him. "I know Rosalie will kill me for saying this, but this isn't about her. It's about you and Bella, and what you two really, truly want." Jasper paused, then chuckled at himself. "I sound like a girl," he mocked himself. "But it's true. If Bella really wants this, then you shouldn't force her away."
15th-Oct-2007 02:41 am (UTC)
"I guess it doesn't help when everyone has conflicting opinions. I feel like I should be making everyone happy."

Edward started breaking a large stick into tiny pieces, occupying his mind. "How do you feel about all this?"
15th-Oct-2007 02:49 am (UTC)
Jasper shook his head; Edward worried about others too much sometimes.
"Me?" he questioned. "I think you should do it," he stated firmly. "So long has you can live with the decision," he added as an afterthought.
15th-Oct-2007 02:54 am (UTC)
"Bella and I tried living apart once, and I don't think that went too well," Edward sighed, an empty feeling creeping up inside of him. "I couldn't live without her again."

"I just think Bella doesn't quite understand what it's going to be like...to be a vampire."
15th-Oct-2007 02:57 am (UTC)
"Have you ever shown her what it's like to be a vampire?" Jasper asked. "After all, I'm sure she's only seen the good side: immortality, and the love of her life for ever. Literally. She probalby doesn't completely realize how...strong the bloodlust can be. Maybe on a hunting trip is in order?"
15th-Oct-2007 03:01 am (UTC)
"I've never taken her hunting before because I thought it would be too dangerous. I could have lost control when I was...in the moment, so to speak."

Edward remembered what it was like after he killed Victoria. The look of complete terror on Bella's face. It made him shudder.

"I know it would be quite educational to take on her on hunt with us, but I don't know if I am ready for that," he said, slowly. "Besides. Allowing her to watch us hunt is one thing. When she is a newborn, and in a crowd of humans is completely different. There is no way to prepare her for that."
15th-Oct-2007 03:10 am (UTC)
"That's true. I don't think anyone could until they're actually a vampire," Jasper ran his hand through his hair. "Not a real hunt, exactly. Especially as Rosalie probably won't be invited," he joked. "Just to show her what happens. We'll go well fed, so we don't lose control and go after her. It'll be like fighting those damned werewolves."
15th-Oct-2007 03:17 am (UTC)
"Alright," Edward agreed. "I'll ask Bella if she wants to come with us."

He threw the broken pieces of stick away and dusted off his hands. "It's hard to imagine Bella any different to what she is now."
15th-Oct-2007 03:22 am (UTC)
"Well, think about it," Jasper watched the sticks fly through the air. "Are you really that much different than when you were a human?"
15th-Oct-2007 03:23 am (UTC)
Edward looked at his brother, and rolled his eyes. "Do I remember what I was like when I was human?"
15th-Oct-2007 03:33 am (UTC)
"You know what I mean," Jasper snapped at his brother, though he couldn't help the grin that spread on his face. Finally, Edward wasn't being so broody. "Do you really think that you changed that much? Personality-wise, anyway."
15th-Oct-2007 03:39 am (UTC)
"I don't know. I was still young. I don't think I had experienced a lot. I was still...becoming 'Edward', if that makes any sense." Edward didn't know if he was talking sense at all. His mind was thinking about too many things at once.
15th-Oct-2007 03:44 am (UTC)
Jasper smiled again. "I know what you mean, brother. Every once in awhile I still feel that way," he confessed with a short chuckle. After a moment, he added, "I don't think Bella will change, at least not in the way I think worries you."
15th-Oct-2007 04:13 am (UTC)
"Nothing would ever change the way I feel for her, I am just worried about how she will feel."
He rested his head back against the tree and closed his eyes. "I remember how I felt after Carlisle changed me. There will be a lot that Bella goes through that none of us will be able to help her with. I don't like seeing her suffer."
15th-Oct-2007 04:27 am (UTC)
Jasper shook his head. "Edward, no one likes seeing their lover suffer. Trust me," he grimaced, thinking of the few times he'd ever seen Alice truly rattled. Repressing a shudder, he forced himself to continue. "But even if she remained a human, she'd suffer."
15th-Oct-2007 08:06 am (UTC)
Edward sighed and spread his legs out in front of him, trying to release some of the tension in his body. "Do you ever have any regrets?"
15th-Oct-2007 12:01 pm (UTC)
Jasper thought about that for a minute. "No," he finally answered slowly. "I don't think I do."
15th-Oct-2007 12:16 pm (UTC)
"You never wish your life had been different?" Edward pushed. He never really talked about this, with any of his family. "What it could have been like if you never met Maria?"
15th-Oct-2007 08:16 pm (UTC)
"Nope," Jasper almost smirked at Edward's expression. "There wasn't really time when I was with Maria. And then afteward, before I met Alice, I was thinking about other things. After Alice, I was happy with everything that brought me to her."
16th-Oct-2007 01:34 am (UTC)
Edward sighed, but was glad that Jasper seemed content in this life. Then, a thought occurred to him.

"If you had met Alice, and she was still human, what would you have done?"
16th-Oct-2007 03:05 am (UTC)
Jasper blinked, surprised by the question. He thought that over. "Whatever she wanted, I suppose. I'd try to give her all the options I could, and let her make her own decision. After all, when was the last time I told her 'no'?"
16th-Oct-2007 03:24 am (UTC)
"Good point," Edward smiled. "I just want Bella to be happy."
16th-Oct-2007 03:38 am (UTC)
"Of course you do," Jasper agreed with a smile. "But, and Alice deicded I have to say this, but if you hurt Bella I'll, we'll, be forced to kill you. Got it?" he grinned to let Edward know he wasn't completely serious.
16th-Oct-2007 03:41 am (UTC)
Edward forced a smile, knowing that he was joking. "I'd gladly welcome it."

He looked in the direction of the house. "Can you feel Bella? Can you tell how she is feeling?"
16th-Oct-2007 03:45 am (UTC)
"I think she's still upset over Rosalie's...tactlessness," jasper worded it carfeully. No need to start another fight between his siblings.
16th-Oct-2007 03:51 am (UTC)
"I don't know if going to talk to her will only make things worse."

Edward rubbed his eyes in frustration. "Women are very complex."
16th-Oct-2007 04:00 am (UTC)
"You just realized that?" Jasper teased. "Don't worry, it will get easier as you go. Once you learn to tell the signs of an incoming mood." A sudden thought made him frown slightly. "I hope Alice didn't see that last statement."
16th-Oct-2007 04:36 am (UTC)
Edward chuckled. "I guess it's easy for you to judge moods. I can't read Bella's mind. It's harder."
16th-Oct-2007 12:13 pm (UTC)
"Don't worry, Emmett got the hang of it, I'm sure you could too," Jasper snickered.
16th-Oct-2007 12:18 pm (UTC)
"How does Emmett manage?" Edward wondered, completely baffled. "I mean, Rosalie is so hard to deal with!"
16th-Oct-2007 06:52 pm (UTC)
Jasper laughed. "Hey, you're the one that can read minds. If I knew that, I wouldn't be as confused as you."
16th-Oct-2007 07:54 pm (UTC)
"I think we should have a lot of respect for Emmett," Edward thought. "Because he's either very brave, or very stupid."
16th-Oct-2007 08:36 pm (UTC)
"Why not both?" Jasper suggested, still chuckling. He did love his brother and sister, but it was always fun to joke around. "I think we all are sometimes, though."
16th-Oct-2007 08:38 pm (UTC)
"Some of us find it harder to hide our imperfections, though," Edward smiled.
16th-Oct-2007 10:44 pm (UTC)
Good point," Jasper nodded. "But practice makes perfect. And we've been practicing longer than the others."
17th-Oct-2007 03:02 am (UTC)
"True." Edward turned towards the house, and listened. Finally, he sighed.

"Alice has taken Bella out. She's very mad at me."
17th-Oct-2007 12:07 pm (UTC)
"Don't worry, she'll cool off," Jasper reassured him. "She loves, after all. Besides, fighting every once in awhile's normal. Sometimes even fun," he grinned.
17th-Oct-2007 01:57 pm (UTC)
"You like to fight, don't you?" Edward smiled, looking sideways at his brother.
17th-Oct-2007 06:22 pm (UTC)
"Not until meeting Maria," Jasper shrugged. "But that wasn't what I meant. Making up is the fun part."
18th-Oct-2007 03:18 am (UTC)
"Oh," Edward said, feeling a little awkward. "I imagine it would be."
18th-Oct-2007 03:41 am (UTC)
"Not like that," Jasper rolled his eyes. "And you call me the pervert," he chuckled. "I meant like...well...Do you remember when you and Bella made up after you left? It's something like that."
18th-Oct-2007 04:08 am (UTC)
Edward laughed. "Sorry, I just assumed...what with all the jokes Emmett keeps making."

18th-Oct-2007 06:27 pm (UTC)
Jasper smirked. "Well, that part's good too."
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